It was the needle that broke this camel’s back. I’d been mulling over it for a while. Whether to go anonymous or not. But this morning I found myself trying to construct a post about my deepest secrets in a way that made them ambiguous and not a true confession session. And I hated that. I had to hide things from the bloggers that I love because I didn’t want people in my real life to find out things about myself.
This why I started this blog. Because I love to ramble about every last detail of my life, much to BF’s chagrin. He HATES me spilling my life out to perfect strangers.
“Because ANYBODY could read your blog.” Yeah, But it’s not that great. Have you read it? Nobody would actually want to.
But when it came to the point that I couldn’t bare basic things about myself, things that were so central to my being; and rather I had to hold them back because of the fear of judgment and condescension I would receive from people that I know.
So, here I go. A new blog, and a new chance to be me. I’ve had this blog all of 3 minutes now, and I find myself more liberated. Freer to express everything that I need to. It’s an amazing feeling, and I can finally see why Clink, and the Libster would love this.
I’m excited to get this started, so Let Do This!
So Secrets: (Stolen from CDP, and from This lovely girlas well.)
- I used to think that I loved BF more than he loves me. I don’t think that anymore.
- I miss running. I miss running with a team. I miss running with a team of girls that I liked.
- I am a sci-fi fan. Doctor Who, X-Files, Star Trek (The original series, and the Next Generation, but I’ll watch Deep Space Nine if I’m desperate.)
- I haven’t gone shopping for myself in a long, long time. And I watch ‘How do I look?’ And sometimes I think I’m almost as guilty as the people they help. Though it’s only for lack of money, not lack of knowledge. I can look GOOD when I have the funding.
- Ashley mentioned that she loves strong, independent women. I’m more into the bubbly girls. They get me every time! It is my opinion that a lot more people are bi than they would let on.
- I LOVE cooking. Hate cleaning.
- As much as I want to get married to BF, but I’m worried I’ll be a bad wife. What’s a wife supposed to be anyway?! I’m pretty sure there is no rule book on it, and even if there were, I’d be the one to throw it out!
yes! the perfect first post for the anonymous blogger – secrets! its a brand new day for you girly and I’m so happy that YOU’RE happy to have made this choice!
ps. let it be known, for the record, that i just posted the first comment on your BRAND SPANKING NEW BLOG!
I found you! Ha! That was quick!
(okay, I saw someone new had linked me via site meter, and then I put two and two together)
Are you gonna’ put to rest old blog, or have this one as a secret life?
I agree about the freedom of anonymity, though. Even though I really don’t say a lot that I wouldn’t want people I know IRL to know, I like the freedom of not having to worry about how I say may be construed. Even the approximately three people who know about my blog who also know me (they are also fellow bloggers, or else I wouldn’t have told them anything) sometimes make me second guess what I say!
Okay, longest comment ever. Nighty night!
yay for the new anonymous blog!
I just want to sing…”This is the story of a girl, who cried a river and drowned the whole world…”
You’ll be a great wife. It’s all about love.
I can’t give you any advice on how to be a good wife. I was a perfect wife for a long time but then I realized I HATED my husband and decided to be the absent wife instead. God that feels like so long ago . . .
Anyway don’t let me color your view on marriage. Three years later I can happily tell you that I’d marry McD tomorrow if he asked me. Even though he’s not perfect. Perfection? Overrated.
I hate cleaning too. I used to love it.
I haven’t gone shopping for myself in a long time either. This whole student budget is starting to really annoy me.
Love the new digs, girl!
I LOVE this layout.
Also, I am waaaay tempted to go anon now. Ah!
Must be so freeing, eh? And you will be a great wife, it just takes love, and wanting to make it work.