Big thoughts for a new year.

I could wrap up 2007. I could regale you all with all the tales of a very monotonous existence. But really, I’m not very interested in writing it, so I can’t imagine how boring it would be to read that.
It’s not that I don’t love my life, but I don’t have very many things that happen to me. So, it doesn’t make for very interesting reading.

So, I will do what I tried to do last year. 12 resolutions, one for each month. 31 days of doing something should make it a habit. That’s the idea at least. (Problem is, I’m up to like 6. That’ll get me halfway through the year. Maybe I’ll have to repeat them, or come up with new ones as the year goes on.)

And a few things I’m looking forward to. Some this year, and some in the waay far away future.

One resolution a month:

January (I’m not getting a late start, I just had to have extra time to think about it.) – Be more organized. This is my overall goal too, but really I’m concentrating on it this month.. How I plan on accomplishing it: (Because if you don’t have a plan, you won’t get it done.)
- Keep up with all of our medications. I will buy a planner, and every time one of our medications needs refilling, I will call it in – IN ADVANCE.
- Because I tend to live a sort of messy existence, I resolve to clean every day. And on days I work, I will for 30 minutes before and 30 minutes afterwards. It might not seem like a lot, but an hour a day will be a hell of a lot better than..um…an hour a week. Or an hour every 2 weeks.
- Make a list for daily, weekly, and monthly chores. And complete them.

February: Get fit. Run 5 times a week. I don’t have to run far. I don’t have to run fast. I just need to get off my lazy butt and do it. Cuz yeah…remember “Project Sexxy Bee”?
Yeah…I don’t either.

March: Make more home cooked meals more. We eat out too often. I’m not saying we eat out a lot, just with our budget, we eat out too much. I will plan the meals in advance (Because I will be more organized) and I will by the food in advance. This way, I won’t tell myself I don’t want to cook because I’d have to run to the grocery store first.

April: Keep in touch with my family. I am the world’s worst at contacting people. I’m not exactly sure why, but I will get rid of this stupid habit THIS YEAR! And my family will actually remember who I am, because they talk to me more than twice a year.

May: I will pay all my bills on time this month. I know this has a little to do with getting organized, but there are so many times I don’t pay my bills, not because I don’t have the money, but because I just forget about them until the phone/electric company is all WE’RE GOING TO COME AFTER YOU WILL RABID BABIES AND KILL YOU. And, only then am I like, Oh yeah! You wanted money. Whoopsie.

June: I will save more money. We kind of let the money situation get away from us this semester. In that Bf doesn’t have as much money in his account as he needs to in order to pay off school. Because we spent it all. I HAVE to get on top of keeping up with how much money we spend and where.
- Balance my account twice a week. Make sure the money that’s in there is the money I think is in there.
- Take out the cash that I will need for random grocery shopping and gas getting and stuff, and LEAVE THE REST ALONE. Geez.

…And that’s all I have for now. I realize some of them are related, but you know what?! I am so disorganized, I will be lucky to be organized by the end of the year. And I put the really big, difficult ones on their own month.

Good luck to me!

Things I’m looking forward to this year:

1.) Getting BF through another 2-3 semesters (3 if he goes this summer). Life is good when he’s going to school.

2.) Getting a new job. Finally. I’ve been at my dead-end job for almost 2 years now. TWO. YEARS. Wasted. I haven’t left, even though there were times I thought I would, but if this job thing with this school works out, I won’t just be (happily) leaving the hotel, I’ll also be going into a better paying job, with normal hours, and! I can take some classes FOR FREE!

3.) Not being so damn poor. (This is related to getting a new job)

4.) Celebrating our 4 year anniversary. I love celebrating our relationship. I’d do it every day, but I think it would get old and annoying.

5.) Learning sign language. I’ve been doing this off and on for the past 6ish months. And now I’ve figured out just how many resources there are on the net. I will use them. Learn sign language. Pass my tests to become a certified interpreter and then make tons of money. Sounds good, no? Truth is, I’m learning sign language, not because of greed, but because I honestly find it fascinating, and the deaf culture as well. I wish I had a teacher, but I guess I will do the best I can with learning by myself.

Things I’m looking forward to in the very far away future:

1.) Finally starting a life with B. I’m not ready for marriage, yet. But I will be, soon enough. And I’m looking forward to that. And I’m honestly happy that it’s not now. I’m not ready yet, but I look forward to the time when I will be. I am sooo looking forward to seeing how B pops the question. To how we plan our wedding (He’s already expressed his feelings on how he might want to be involved. Fine! I’ll let him plan the um…Ice.) I’m looking forward to seeing the look on his face when I walk down the aisle. To hearing his vows, and how much I will cry when I say mine. Oh my gosh, okay. I’m done here.
And a lot of people ask me, “Well, what’s the difference between marriage and what you have now.” A LOT, Okay?! When we get married, it won’t simply signify a joining of our lives forever, we’re going to get married when we’re financially stable and ready to do the things our parents are aching for us to do (Get married, have lots of kids for them to spoil. That’s all we’re good for, apparently.) When we get married, that means we’ll have a house, and we’ll have good jobs and we’ll be ready for real adult life.
Or maybe I’m just making that last part up, and there’s really no difference at all.

2.) To B’s Graduation. I won’t actually walk the stage with him, but by god, I will have a stake in his diploma too. It will be a long, difficult struggle. But we’ll make it. And when we do? I’m pretty sure I will pass out from excitement. And exhaustion. And too much alcohol in my system.

3.) To me starting school. I’m hoping to take some online classes this year, but I am honestly looking forward to going to school full-time and not having to work. I’ll let B do all that. With his shiny new degree.

4.) Seeing positive on a pregnancy test for the first time. And not freaking out about it. Or actually being excited. I know I freaked out a last week about being pregnant, and this seems weird to say now. But honestly, It’s got me thinking. I want kids. Just no time in this decade. Or really, in the first half of the next decade. I’m looking forward to the time when B and I have our shit straightened out enough to conceivably be able to take care of a baby. And then we’ll plan, and try and have one, and then I’ll get pregnant. And fat, and then I’ll have a baby. One that’s half of me, and half of him. And we will be happy. And we will be a family. Sure, it’s something that scares the holy living shit out of me now, but I think that day will be a good one once we’re ready for it.

5.) Knowing how to write better. I’ve never completed a college course. And the one I’m most looking forward to? The writing courses. Knowing where commas go, and where they don’t. ( I get confused a lot) Knowing how to structure my posts and/or essays. Writing so much that writing well just comes easily for me. I don’t ever want to submit something to Indie Bloggers, because I don’t think I write well as it is. And their tag line is, “Write well. Write now.” And for me? It’s more like, “Write well. Someday Once you know that commas aren’t something you have to pepper throughout your entire post. Geez.”