The truth is that some days it’s hard to be encouraging. That there are some days that I don’t like B, and everything he does annoys me. The truth is on those days? It’s usually because I’ve got way too many hormones going, and my brain starts thinking things that it shouldn’t because it’s bored or something.
The truth is that it’s a lot easier to wake up when you’re in a cranky, sleepy fight with the love of your life, and neither of you have had near enough sleep.
The truth is that while I’ve heard how these may be the best times of my life? They’re also the hardest, and I hope that it gets easier at some point.
The truth is that I would much rather spend a night alone, and cook for one like I’m single because he’s up at school studying all night, than have to fight B to do his homework. That I hate having to feel like his mother, but sometimes I think that might make things easier. But I know, when I’m thinking that? It’s because I haven’t tried hard enough.
The truth is that I would follow him to the end of the world, and let him lead me right off a cliff (Though, arguably, I might be trying to talk him out of it the whole way.) The truth is that I believe in him, and I won’t give up. I can’t, and I won’t. I’ve already got to believe in him when everybody else is lacking, and sometimes even enough for him too. But I’ve got enough faith in him to go around.
The truth is that sometimes life is stressful, so stressful that all I can do is crawl up in a little ball, and wonder how I’m possibly going to face the world the next day. But then, usually with my rock by my side, I gain confidence again. Maybe I wasn’t strong enough to take on the world yesterday – one man, one reservation, and one class at a time – but today? I will be.
The truth is that I have to think that to keep going, and part of me thinks I’m only thinking that because I get in survival mode.
The truth is that every time I hear this upbeat song? It makes me cry.
“And even though we ain’t got money / I’m so in love with you, honey / And everything will bring a chain of love. / And in the morning, when I rise / You bring a tear of joy to my eyes / And tell me everything is gonna be alright.”
And they’re not sad tears.
The truth is that I don’t think I would make it without him, nor him without me. We bring our strengths and weaknesses to the table, jumble them around and pretend like we know what we’re doing when we’re truly clueless, and in the end, he’s got what I need, and vice versa.
But the truth is? I don’t think we’d want to make it without each other. It’s not just that he’s strong where I lack, the truth is that he makes the struggles, and the fights, he makes them all worth it. He makes me happy when I’m stupid cranky, and makes me want to get up after I’ve been struggling to get to sleep for half an hour just so I can tell him how much I love him.
He’s the macaroni to my cheese. The peanut butter to my jelly. The yin to my yang, and the joke for my laughs. I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Bring it all on, because we can take it.
Aw, I know it’s rough but you’ll get through it
What a sweet post. I have no doubt that you two will be very happy together.
A relationship wouldn’t be a relationship with the occasional downer. Hang in there. Hugs hugs hugs.
They aren’t all happy truths, but they are necessary truths, and I’m glad you’re aware of them. You guys are a good team.
Despite all the struggles, as long as you keep this positive attitude in the back of yuor mind, you will make it through.
Sounds like it is a rough time but I am know that it will get easier. It may not be soon but it will. Your attitude and your love will get you through so much.
You amaze me with how strong you are. I know how hard it is to be the only one who believes in the other sometimes, even when the other doesn’t believe in themselves. Don’t ever underestimate your strength. You may draw it from him, but you are more than able to be what you need when necessary. The fact that you can identify wanting to be alone, even while wanting to be with him is something many women in relationships can’t do.
OK. This made me cry. So much love. So many truths. I heart you!
AMAZING post hon. This is EXACTLY what relationships are about – the good AND the bad. And I love that song too. By the way, the macaroni to my cheese? I have GOT to use that sometime! XOXO
I could do nothing but smile after reading this.
You do know what love is, that’s for sure.
I love this post. It’s so important to realize that despite all the hard times, the good times make it worth it. That’s when you know you’ve found your soulmate.
It is obviousl that no matter what you have endured or have yet to endure with him you love one another os much and are clearly meant to be togeter.
I’ve already forgotten the bad times. I’ve just fallen so deeply in love again….
Dear i read this wen i fought with my bf n was all tears..now m smiling tat love isn’t realized truely without hard times..cute post