We are each other’s destiny..

I am normally not the type that has drama in my life. I’m usually low-key, easy-going type person. Things don’t usually happen to me, but I find myself surrounded with friends who do. They live the crazy lives, always have amazing stories to me.

I guess I just prefer the mundane to the extraordinary. The commonplace and uneventful to the exciting and adventurous. Not that I don’t love a good adventure, just not when it’s surrounded by drama.

I can take drama, adventure, and excitement. But only up to a point. And this week? Was nothing but constant, exhausting drama.

If one were to ask me to sum up my week, I would point one to Thursday. Because Thursday encompassed everything that this week has, all in 24 hours. And I don’t do well with that kind of drama.

I woke up 40 minutes before I had to be at work, and made it out the door within 20 minutes. Great start to a great day. I knew that this was the type of day that would’ve been spent more productively in bed.

No. It will not be that type of day. Things will get better, I can feel it.

I got to work, and was told that not only was I not getting a raise, I was asked told to keep my hours to full time. Nothing over. I set down the stuff I was working on, and walked out.

Outside it was cold, and rainy. Another good omen, yet still I pressed on. Insisted that things are never that bad. The day always looks up. Think POSITIVELY.

It just seems grossly unfair to be working your ass off, and not only are you not being paid the right wage, but you’re not even allowed to get overtime. This is how much we value you, and your work. This is how much we appreciate everything you’ve done, all the hard work you’ve put in. It felt like a slap in the face. Here I am, working a bookkeeper/babysitter/customer service rep. job all for the Customer Service Rep’s wage. And I could even be okay with that, up to a point. But then I’m cut off at the knees? Not only are we not going to pay you more, we don’t even want you here if you’re going to force us to.

It won’t be that kind of day. Thing will probably get better.

I was so angry, so frustrated, so hurt. I honestly didn’t know … anything, really. I didn’t know if I’d made the right decision. I didn’t know what I was doing. I didn’t even know if I wanted to stick around for another minute.

I could go into details here, but, quite frankly, they’d be very negative, and not at all worth reading. Fact of the matter is, one of the most annoying parts of my job, something that I have to put up with every day, countless times a day, was thrown back into my face, as if it was some sort of fault of my own. Which was, in fact, brought up in a very important meeting with the Big Wigs. Again, Wonderful.

No. I won’t let it be one of those days. Keep pressing on…

After I found this out, I tried to grab some lunch, thinking that I was just imagining the bad day because I was in a bad mood because I’d had serious lack of sustenance. I go, and the card is declined, and not only do I not have food, but I barely have enough gas to get home. So, I broke down. In big, heaving sobs, with tears that drop straight off my face. I couldn’t help it.

It’s just one of those days.

I’d given up on positive thinking. What’s the use? So, I just went with the flow.

Moose ordered me lunch delivered, and then after I ate, I called BF. I know that whenever I’m stressed, the only person that can make it better is him. And when he said I love you.. I miss you, and I could really hear the sincerity in his voice… I just sat there in shock. Three words, in two sentences, but coming from that one person, it just felt like all my stress had lifted. And that everything was right in the world again.
And then, much to my dismay, my day got better. The Boss that’d heard so much crap about me came by and was unusually nice to me. We closed and locked the doors. We went grocery shopping, but then saw an amazing spa/salon, that I’m going to get my hair cut at on Monday.

The end of the day rolled around, and I was frustrated, frazzled from everything that’d gone on. It was almost just as bad that things had gotten better in a way, because I didn’t know what to think. I’d given in to the bad day, and it did something unexpected. And the unexpected is just filled with drama.

I spent the night loving on my boyfriend, while watching some really great, and some really crappy shows. And as midnight rolled around, as we lied there sweaty from making love, entwined in each others arms, I thought how much life can surprise you. Sometimes, even for the better. And sometimes, one person can be the difference between the good, and the bad. Between handling it, and going crazy. Between the world being for you, and against you. Sometimes, the only difference is having the right person in your corner.

When I’m weak I draw strength from you
And when you’re lost I know how to change your mood
And when I’m down you breathe life over me
Even though we’re miles apart we are each other’s destiny